STALKER MUCH

Sorry for the lack of posting lately been busy ^^ OK here is a thought,

Is your friendship or relationship with someone deep enough to find them? Yes it's a random question. Alas its the single thought that has been playing on my mind today.

Hypothetically speaking - do you think you would be able to find someone, if they simply gave you an area and a landmark. I guess, its possible that if you knew the area well enough then it is possible. But what happens, if you had a hunch where they were - not just the area but the precise location. Creepy? yes. Stalkerish? Most Definitely. Meaning? To be honest, I don't have a clue.

So here I ponder. Is it possible to have such a connection to a loved one, that one could find them in any situation? Apparently, twins have a psychic connection due to their birth rights. But what if this was applicable to everyone and those that they loved? The implications of this would be both puzzling and a development in the human race.

Naturally, this the finding of a loved one is not restricted to the physical realm. One can always find a loved one through emotional hardship and mental crisis. That is to say that, when close to someone, you will be able to find them in a sea of emotions, a desert of despair and a realm of unknown. Your face, your hand, and your support is what finds them.

More over, is it possible for one to find themselves? If one were truly to be connected to themselves, they too would be able to find themselves amongst all the emotions and physical barriers. Finding one's self can be see as knowing one's self, being comfortable with one's self and above all else loving one's self. Whilst for some this as naturally as walking or talking for others it is more difficult. For those that have lived a life of hurt and pain, and no nothing more, the doubt they entrenched within themselves, is not a reflection of mistrust to those close to them, but rather a defence mechanism implanted over years. A defence mechanism that is designed to prevent those from being hurt, but in turn also prevents those from loving - themselves and others.

Indeed before one can love any one else, or find them for that matter, they must be able to love and find themselves. For those that have been hurt, it is the idea of daring to lower the defences, the idea of finding yourself in order to move on. Not a simple task my any means - for those that have been hurt, to trust themselves is the biggest leap of faith. And so this is likened to my early blog -

Courage is not the absence of fear - rather it is the acknowledgment that something is more important that fear itself.

And so the question is posed - to those that have been hurt, is the thought of finding one's self and finding others close to you, more important than the fear of being hurt? At one stage, this question would have been difficultly answered by myself. A concept that seemed simple enough on the surface, but presented days of turmoil. That was once upon a time. Here and now, the answer is more apparent then ever.

And so the saying goes - 1 step back , 2 steps forward.
I have taken my step back now its time to move forward.

- Pe3Jay