Silver Lining

I have been quite hormonal today - emotions have been all over the place. And hence, the triple post since this morn.

And so the saying goes -
To every cloud there is a silver lining.

Indeed, in this last week there has been turmoil and angst, the cloud that lingers over my head. But as of now, the silver lining is becoming clear.

I set out to find myself this weekend, and indeed many people tried to assist me. And to those that tried to help me, I thank you. However, it took forgotten friendship, to guide me to find myself.

Forgotten may not be the write word to describe it. Over time the friendship had change in both characteristic and manner. It was never forgotten, just not as instantaneously recognised. It is however, this fact that allowed me to find myself. Though time and some distance has grown between us, the reassurance that was given has guided me to find myself today.

I don't think that the friend realises how much he has given me in that small conversation. But I am forever in his debt. To thank him is simply not enough.

And although, right now I have turmoils and angst within me, I have discovered something. Something that I hope will aid me in rediscovering the friendship that I single handedly destroyed. I have found myself. And whilst it is just the beginning, its a different story from here on in.

Yesterday, my backward step had been taken. Today, I begin to move forward.

-Pe3Jay